The Third Letter

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my immortal beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - yes, unhappily it must be so - you will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - oh god, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - at my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in out connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve out purpose to live together - be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine

Ever mine

Ever ours.

Crashing me by

There's a blue light..

Just another friday evening. Eyes hurt by the evening orange.

Love-hate.

Bitter-sweet.

There's a blue light

I wanna see it shine

I'd told you, that you were making memories of your own. That your frames were ones that didn't include me.

I'd told you.

And mine, well..

Mine were helium, red balloons, which flew away.

Or millions of little pinpricks.

Resounding in the general hullabaloo.

And if you're hurting, you should've come along a little sooner.

The esctasy.

And the sinking.

Pulls me down.

Keeling me over.

There's a world outside my doorstep.

But I'm content.

And you know that.

Revisiting the same places, the same times, the same winter.

The winter which eased summer in.

The laughter, and the tears.

Tears that brought you home.

Little by little.

Fade into you

Strange you never knew

Fade into you

I think it's strange you never knew

etude

shards of crystal

quiet

serene

reflecting the ultraviolet

a line of red

underneath

resonant depths

of pools of brown

brown that pierces

laughs

smiles

cries.

loves.

me

in three different places

yet the same

circled

enraptured

time is an

entity unto an abyss

as streaks

and angles

shift

shift till

the gray of the water

and the gray of the sky

are one

my air is not this time and space

i draw you close with every breath